Sandakan.

we flew on a prop plane this morning from kota kinabalu to sandakan in sabah. it was the first real taste of borneo it seems like. everything is different now, i feel so different, so unlike myself after the things i saw today, the rainforest, monkeys...and clear cut palm oil plantations as far as the eye could see. i need to learn more, do more. i didn't expect to feel this way. this place is being destroyed so fast and it is unbelievable how much there is to lose if it goes away. and we only saw the tiniest bit of it. tomorrow we drive 7 hours on a dirt road to the heart of the jungle and see even more. this morning we met with the sabah forestry department, in a government meeting room, maybe 12 guys talking about sustainable forestry. i did my first real assistant work after hillary interviewed them, holding lights outside in the soupy air getting eaten alive by jungle mosquitos. the trip finally feels real, like what we are supposed to be doing, instead of just a tourist thing. but i'm kind of freaking out. alot. it's so strange and important and huge and confusing and i feel like a tiny little inconsequential nothing. i might just be really exhausted. well i am. but i don't think that's all it is. maybe i'm just too focused on myself right now i don't know. this might be the last internet i have for days. bye world.